As I am about to leave the race I cant help but take a second to thank God for this season, this season that changed my life. A season that showed me Jesus in a way I have never seen Him before. But most importantly I am thanking God for Gap E. The group of people that I met as strangers on day one in September, but then grew to be a group of people I call family.
Now we are a group of humans that are different, that have come from backgrounds, different ways of living, from different states, different skin colors, different churches. But the one thing that binds us together is the father that created us. We may be different, but we have absolutely everything in common because of what Jesus did. To the family I have grown to love, fight for, and care deeply for, I’m thankful that we have to leave each other , because we have more people to invite into the family. Into this family of believers , a family that never gives up even when things got hard.
Gap E I send you out, I send you out into this world, into this place that needs to hear the same gospel that we all heard and is the reason we are here right now. I cannot wait to see the seeds of hope and love that you are going to place into the hearts of the people you meet.
I started writing this blog two days before leaving to go back to states with my squad. I was writing this with excitement as I’m going into this next season and am feeling so ready to jump into whatever God has for me and my squad.
Flash forward a couple hours, and we get covid tested.
We all get covid tested to be able to go home, it’s a fun morning as we are about to start a session with some worship, and a teaching. Then our leadership sits us down, and says, three people tested positive for Covid, we cant go home yet. Once we got conformation, that they had covid, we had three hours to pack up our bags, cancel our flights , and get on the bus to head back to the base we had been staying at, during our time here in Guatemala. During this time it’s sinking in that this is the last day of our race. Some people have covid, some people are flying home to the states, and like me I am staying longer than anticipated because I had been exposed to covid. Our final night as a squad looked like having our final banquet, social distanced, tables apart, only being able to talk, sit by, and hug our separate teams. Dancing to the music that lifted our spirits and watching videos of these past nine months together.
We laughed, cried, and waved goodbye. And within a quick couple hours half the squad was on their way to the airport at seprtete times. I woke up at our base the next morning realizing the fact that some of the people I had seen every morning for the past five months were gone. Deep sadness then came upon my heart. This was not how I imagined our race to end. I was supposed to be on a flight home together with the people I Called family. But the case is it didn’t happen this way, and thats okay. Im here sitting in my bed , with half my team mates living a very sweet life in quarentine. This is very true!
One thing that the Lord has been constantly teaching me on the race is to let down my expectations and leave them in the Lords hands. That if things don’t go my way, which have happened a lot, that God is still so so good. If I don’t leave on time, He is still good, if I didn’t get to say goodbye, He is still good. Yes I don’t know when I’m heading back to the states, we do get tested in a couple days again. But, while I’m waiting, and while this may be hard, I am going to praise and worship God through it. He is a faithful and is a good God and there is nothing too big or small that the Lord cannot do.
Now my people, if you can be praying big prayers for the next couple days for negative test in Jesus name. And for the rest of my squad to be able to get to our next places safely , and with lots of breeze and ease. Even is some of us have covid, and it’s hard not to know what tomorrow holds, God is still so good and He is with me and my squad , through whatever storm comes our way. I love you all so much, thank you all for keeping up on this life the Lord has me living, that has changed my life. Now I’m going to be writing more blogs , so stay tuned, until next time! I love you all!
