Here is a glimpse into what the fathers been growing and doing in me the past little bit, when it comes to fundraising.
I want to be honest and real with you, I’ve been frustrated, I’ve been angry, I’ve been disappointed, I’ve been suppressing a lot of emotions. Ive cried about this, I’ve almost given up, I’ve fought with the Lord, Ive asked why. Deadlines have surpassed, ive gotten pushed down again.
Why father have you called me to a discipleship and leadership program and then to the Middle East and not provide the funds right after that.
I have prayed, I have given up things, I have laid down more than I could pick up. This is to much, its bigger than me.
You have promised and have told me that you will provide every single penny, and I have been believing, holding unto every rope of hope, now Im at the very last strand, it’s getting loose in my hands. It would feel a whole lot easier just to let go. Just to give up and find something new, but I cant. My father says I can’t, He still says He’s going to provide in every and any way, I just have to trust Him and continue holding unto the rope of hope.
But raising $13,500 in less than three months seems far from possible, I’ve seen God work miracles, but this seems really hard.
Still God says it’s possible, anything is possible. He is not contained to anything here on earth.
Thank you God for calling me into this current season CGA and to this next season ( going to the Middle East ) Thank you for choosing me and for preparing me for the good works you’ve sent before you created the world. Thank you God for all those who have provided over $18,000 in funds for me to be able to go and share your good news with those I have had the opportunity to come in contact with.
My hands are open and they are ready, praying over every penny, every way you’re going to use to bring glory to your name, the miracles that are going to take place. Im expectant and ready to see what you’re going to do. Im realizing what you’re teaching me, reliance on you father and not on money is the heart of why this is sinking me.
Im scared, money is the thing trying to stop me, but I’m saying yes still, whatever it looks like, I trust you.
So here it is, a big piece of what the fathers doing
I give the baton unto you next, will you take it?
It’s so much more than money, its for the kingdom.
Philippines 4:10-19
“You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, his generosity exceeding even yours in the glory that pours from Jesus.”
11 Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to get along happily whether I have much or little. 12 I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of contentment in every situation, whether it be a full stomach or hunger, plenty or want; 13 for I can do everything God asks me to with the help of Christ who gives me the strength and power. 14 But even so, you have done right in helping me in my present difficulty.
