Dear squad, wow here we are in month nine, we’ve made it, we’ve made it to the last month together. I know, I know, its been a ride that none of us expected, one that most of us could of so easy given up on, but we didn’t. We pressed on through the hard stuff, we went through a hard fire of sicknesses, injuries, spiritual warfare, covid restrictions, family members from squad e going home,  thoughts of doubt and fear, and thoughts of is this race even worth it. When we gave God our everything and fought hard for the freedom and redemption that the Lord had for us and went all into that with open hearts and the willingness to be used by God for anything, and oh man did the Lord take everything that the enemy was trying to steal from us and turn it to joy. 

God is so so good, and I thank him that He gave me you to do this life with. A life that has been hard, that has Broken us time in time again, but the Lord kept reminding me that He had us go through those fires, to become a stronger family, to go all in to everything, and to go all in to what the Lord has. Sometimes the Lord has to remind us that through it all He hold control. Like, y’all we are currently in Guatemala, during a pandemic. When march 2020 rolled around I would of never guessed that I would be here, that we would be here, but the Lord knew. Oh on the other side of every disappointing thing that takes over our plans and what we thought this race would look like, does the Lord have freedom waiting and turns it all around for his glory and for our good. And we went straight into it and never cared what we looked like, because we were so desperete for an outpouring of Jesus. A life of abundance and every bit of fullness that I lord has. 

It’s crazy how quickly time fly’s and that I only have 23 days left with you. Yes I know, 23 days that I have the honor to live with you, some of the realest, rawest people I have ever met. 

 Though In 23 days Im not going to be waking up next to you and that thought brings me to tears, because gap E you’ve changed me. I can only imagine how insanly foreign may 31st will be. We will wake up eat breakfast , laughing together, we will be crying with each other singing , Jesus you’re beautiful, and jumping like crazy to our squad song joy, We will be worshipping together, rejoicing in all the Lord has done. With its challenges, its joys and everything in between. Remembering everything that was, what is now, and what is to come. We will say goodbye. 

Right now we are going all into our ministries, each other and the Lord, cause that realization is slowly tugging on our hearts. Realizing the great urgency to never stop chasing after each other and the people of Guatemala. My dear friends we only have 23 days of this beautiful, wide awakening, heart opening season with each other. We only have a few more days , but you know what I wouldn’t trade these next 23 days for anything, even if this world had all the beans and rice, with a side of coke in it.  I’m right where the Lord wants me to be. In the arms of my squad. 

So Gap E, I thank you, I know my thank you will never be enough , but its good enough for now. Squad , I see Jesus in you. Every morning I get the ultimate privilege to wake up next to you, to see a new side of Jesus everyday in you. I get to listen to the dreams and the different things that the Lord is working in you and through you. I see fierceness and boldness on you. I see a squad that is madly in love with Jesus and would do anything for him. Thank you for leading me to Jesus, for bringing the kingdom of God down and allowing me into walk alongside you all. 

To try to find a way to say how much I love you, im learning is quite impossible. Ive learned that this life living for God is what love is and I get to love you all, because He loved me. Being apart of gap E has been the greatest and most incredible pleasure of my life. Only because God has been apart of it since day one. You are my people, a group of imperfect people who love Jesus madly. 

Gap E when may 31st comes around I can’t wait to wave goodbye in the Dallas airport because I know you are going home to  change this world. As you go back to your homes, cities, and states, you are going to bring Jesus with you and also every single thing you have learned into the rest of the world. 

Gap E I love you and cant wait to see you change this world for Jesus, this world ain’t ready for us yet! Love Kaitlyn!