These are my days

Im doing what I was created to do 

Ill do it over and over again, until God calls me elsewhere 

My days here in Guatemala look like ones that I have dreamed of since I was a little girl and now I am living it out. These Days are long and hard, days where I give everything that is in me and I give that out in everything. Days where I end the day crying out because I had nothing else left in me. Days where I laugh for hours. Days where I give my everything and give God the glory that He is due and worship him fro hours. Days where all I can do is cry as I’m driving around the city and see a great need for the people here. Days where I would get woken up at 5am by the sounds of cars on the interstate that surrounds our base. Days where I would fall asleep at dinner because I was exhausted from walking up a mountain on the way ministry. Days where I am beautifully overwhelmed, everywhere I looked, raw human need had been on display. Days where all I can do is pray for the people here. 

Now you could think of these words  I just wrote as complaints, but you see I love the days where all I had to give God were tears. I love my bed in a room full of eight beautiful women, whom I call family. I love the sound of cars zooming by, cause that is the same road I take to ministry and I love that people are going from place to place to start something new with their day. I love the bright morning sun at 

5:30 am that beems through the window and that I can hear the Lords voice in the stillness of the morning. I love the days of constant worship . Oh the extravagant joy that I felt while dancing around a sea of hammocks hanging up behind me on a basketball court. Oh how I love sitting in the sun with some people who I call family. I love doing dishes for over thirty humans who I love deeply and get to say good morning and goodnight to!

I love my new life! These are the days I live for, longed for and have prayed for, because I find God in all my days here, then I ever could before. 

To think I could be watching tv right now in my air conditioned living room, while eating something from my fridge that I knew was always full. I could be in my car driving through a drive thru. I could be with my best friend in a Coffee shop right now, tasing for hours. To think of the many things I could be doing right now in the states is nothing compared to what I am doing now.

 I wanted so much more than what I was doing before. I want to be spiritually And emotionally filled everyday. I want to love people so hard, and never go a day without laughing. I want to wake up to the sun piercing through the sky and the feeling of the mourning breeze. I want to feel the sun against my skin as we drive up the mountain to ministry. I want to feel the bumpiness of the cobblestone roads, that are around the city. I want to be learning and growing every minute. I want to be taught by every person I come in contact with, and share the gospel with those who may not know it otherwise. I want to work so had that I ended every day filthy and too tired to move. I want to feel needed and important, and used by God. I want to make some kind of difference, no matter how small, and I want to follow the calling God places on my heart. I want to give my life away, and serve the Lord with each breath, each second. At the end of every day no matter how hard it is, I knew I wanted to be here in Guatemala. Opportunities to make someone else’s life better, sounded way more attractive to me than living with the comforts I once had before. The longer I’m on the world race, the more I realized that deep abundance in the Lord began to swallow every dought, and frustration I’ve ever had. No matter how hard the days are, I know I’m at the center of Gods will, and I’m doing what I was created to do. Im loving God and people with my whole bean, life is right where it needs to be!

I love this life that the Lord called me to live and right now, I couldn’t be happier. Yes some days are hard, most days I cry, and my heart gets broken because I love God and for whatever breaks Gods heart breaks mine as well. 

 I love the hugs I get every day by the people God placed in my path. I love the brown eyed children that won’t let go of my hand, because lets be real I have five year olds as best friends! I love the culture of living life slowly, I love the culture here that puts people and relationships first. I love the simplicity of what a smile can do to a person. yes we wear masks, but you can see a lot in someone through their eyes.  I love the eagerness that people have, the eagerness to get a glimpse of what I give my life towards. I love that people love the same Jesus that I do. 

Thank you for taking time to read this and get a glimpse into why I love the world race and everyday life here in Guatemala. If this touched your heart in anyway or have anything to share with me, simply leave a comment or share this blog. God is doing so much and I get to live for him, life is great, that is all. See you next time!